It’s Monday and im sitting here with spencer. He purrs so loud! I tried some new crackers and they are quite delicious 🙂 They are called Cheez- it Zingz the Chipoltle Cheddar kind. Mr. Longfellow thinks it makes my breath smell horrible and actually asked me to brush my teeth and i just sat there like :O then i blew air in his face mwahahahahahaha! It really is fun living with him now cause i wait until he is completely engrossed in Call of Duty: Ghosts and i tickle him or like he will wait unitl im cooking and he will wipe his wet hands on my face.I used to be bothered when his dog Vinny got on the bed cause he stays outside all day then he rolls in dirt and smells bad. Then one day he snapped and said how i dont want any animals in here and i said that wasnt the case when the dogs lay on the carpet i dont care.I just like things being clean especially where i sleep. A few minutes after that conversation i decided i was being harsh about his dog so i called him onto the bed and sat on the other side petting him. That’s what relationships are about … compromise. All of that started because his moms puppy pee’d on the blanket i had over my legs. I got upset because i asked him not to put the puppy on the bed when we first got it for her and he said okay and i said because he would pee. And what does he do? Put the puppy on the bed and it instantly pees. ON ME, and so i get up and tell him what happened and he continues to play his game like nothing happened. of course being a female this angers me being ignored and he just ends up yelling ITS A PUPPY. yes it is a puppy thats not potty trained but that was not the point. I asked him one thing and he broke his word. That’s all i want. If someone tells me to my face that they wont or will do something especially if they are a significant part of my life… FOLLOW THROUGH WITH IT.
Happy Friday.. woo. Yes that was sarcasm. Mr. Longfellow isn’t in a good mood and i don’t know what to do to cheer him up. There’s so much going on. Us getting married and also finding a place to move. I am staying calm about the situation even though i’m just as lost as he is. I mean that’s how relationships are. When someone has a weak moment the other is supposed to be strong. So …meh. Next weekend hopefully i’m going to try on a dress. My mom declined this weekend because she has to study for exams. Im hungry. Grilled cheese would be excellent. I haven’t really worked this week. At all. It’s starting to be confusing because i blog, check emails, type book (most of which i can’t read), call some people, go on twitter, i haven’t been able to take angel pictures in a graveyard yet, and ect. Like i know what my job is. It is clearly defined in my contract but idk. I’m not quitting it there’s just a stand still right now due to legibility of book pages and the fact i just sent the ipad away a few days ago so i cant do the accounting. So i figured i can at least blog today and get a little bit of time clocked in. I went to the doctor yesterday to start my pain management and i thought it was weird that there were cameras in the x-ray room. Which i have never seen before. I know at the hospital on post they like tell you to change in that room so the fact the other place has cameras sounds like a lawsuit waiting to happen AND there are not nurses in the room when your doctor is in the room. I need to go get an MRI then take ot to them then i can get my injections in my spine. It sounds super painful 😦 I need a hug or chocolate. Both preferably. But i guess i don’t NEED chocolate. It’s a comfort item.
HAPPY FRIDAY! today really isnt that special. I got out of the shower and went to grab my towel and the towel bar fell and hit my foot and i wanted to cry. But i didnt so … im a tough chicka lol. It definitely hurt and left two ugly bruises on the toop and side of my foot. Yesterday the Playstation 4 got here. I had stuff to go do and i forgot and i ended up watching Mr. Longfellow play Call of Duty: Ghosts. Today my tv will be delivered. I have a long scratch on my hand and i have no idea how it got there. I just realized by the loud clicks of this keyboard.I type pretty fast 😀 so spencer is a family cat, 1 of 3, and when he argues what you say he goes MEH!!! i was sitting on the couch and i pulled the blanket off my lap and the other half he was laying on so i pulled it from out under him and he gave me a dirty look and i said “:are you mad i took the blanket??” and he looks at me and goes MEH! and then i bust out laughing and so does my future father in-law. These cats so are so feisty today. They keep fighting each other. Like. They are cats. What kind of beef could they possibly have with one another. I dont know. It says its 31 outside and i walked out there with wet hair and shorts on. I hope my sister texts me so i can leave and go do something. My other sister finally left GA yesterday which bothers me because she had me waiting at my parents house for 7 hours waiting on her to show up the day before. I was being nice and i was going to say bye. I ended up leaving to go home as he was crossing several roads before the house. I dont like when people are inconsiderate of someone elses time. Its just rude. I went home because Mr. Longfellow was home from work and i wanted to spend time with him before he had to sleep within an hour. It sucks that he works an hour away. He wakes up at 4:20 gets up and ready in his uniform (Which he looks adorable in) and then leaves and doesnt come home until 7:30. Im not the type thats like “OH MY GAWD YOU NEED TO QUIT YOUR JOB BECAUSE I WANT YOU HERE”. Yes, i do wish i had more time with him but im patient. he has 2 days on 2 days off then weekends alternate between on and off. An hour before bed is still better than no time at all. All these damn cats are sniffing at my pudding cup 😦 MINE! and then Gizmo across the room is like contorting himself to chew on his back. I think its funny when cats put their leg up in the air. They do human things. Like Spencer. The orange tabby. Was sleeping on this chair with his butt on the chair and the rest of him folded on top of his butt it was one of the strangest things i have seen. This weather is super mixed up just a few days ago i was at the beach and now its 30 degrees. My birthday is next month 😀 on the 22nd. I probably wont do anything /: im super hungry. 😮 I have bean and cheese burritos in the freezer. How about JG Fitzgerald went over to my last residence and i was eating said burritos and he said “yuck! what is that?!?!?!” and then threw it away. That was my lunch. So he brought me trail mix. It doesnt compare. I got the Kingdom Hearts game i had been wanting to play. Mr. Longfellow and i went to Gamestop and traded in his Xbox 360, games, and controllers and got store credit so he got me 2 games, Kingdom Hearts and the new Final Fantasy game for Playstation 4. Unfortunately the second game isnt out yet so he put in a preorder. I dont expect him to get me things and when he does i just want to cuddle him. Like the day he ordered the Ps4… Bath and Body Works is right by Gamestop and he told me to go in and pick something with the extra cash from selling his truck. I got the Maui shower gel. It smells quite nice. I keep forgetting to take it into the shower so i have only used it on my hands.
Meh. its thursday. I still feel horrible.And my tummy hurts. Its 1:40. It was funny i had to call Urban Outfitters this morning and she was like
“Im so jealous of your name” and i was like haha 😀
TRUE STORY. Mr. Longfellow has got me hooked on EDM (electric dance music). Oh and how about i was standing under the ceiling fan and he asks “are you high??” and hes taller than me so he moved his head in and out of the light watching my eyes adjust and said that my pupils were big and i was just standing there confused. i have never done drugs so yeah.It was weird coming from him randomly. I found pictures from when i graduated high school and my hair has grown so much! eh why is this computer lagging so bad 😦 its making me sad. here i am trying to blog my life away and its like”naw dog.”. Sorcery! uhm i smell something burning and i did not light a candle….uh oh.. maybe mama Longfellow did. or this window has super poor insulation cause i know it lets in a cold breeze at night which is why i sleep with 4 blankets. Beep boop beep. i was at Wendys the other day and a female voice says hi to me and i look and its someone that was a total wench to me in high school and then i here her say come to mommy and i look at her arms extended to the baby across the table. Everyone is poppin out babies like tic tacs. Like my sister just announced yesterday that shes having another baby. granted shes older than these fresh out of high school females. But i guess i cant really say anything because im getting married but i wont be having any youngins for at least 3 years. He wants to name his son Tiberius and im like why lol and he said because its a roman guy from history(and hes roman) and i said okay and then his mom told me its actually a name from star trek. Hes not a star trek fan hes 100% star wars,his mom told me then laughed and said shes not going to be the one to break the news to him so i dont know if i should tell him or not hahaha. I was upset yesterday because when ever i mention wedding stuff to him he completely doesnt respond and i found out its because he doesn know anything about wedding stuff and i said i want him to atleast show interest so he said if i ask him stuff about it he will give his opnion. Im finding the stuff and he said hes paying for it. I found my dress years ago and they are still selling it. Its only 248 and some change and free shipping but i dont know what size i am i think i am a 4 but i need to go to Davids Bridal and try one on of that brand so i dont order something the wrong size. Im excited 😀
Ugh. I was almost done with this post then i hit a button on the left side of my laptop and it erased everything except the first 7 words 😦 I hate repeating myself. Its like i have a on demand button and people think “oh let me press it because i can”. If i take the time to elaborate on something be considerate enough to listen to what the frack i’m saying. So Monday the Longfellow crew went and picked up mamas new puppy hes squeeling his face off. Its super annoying. I’m trying to not be anti social and hide in my room. so she left for the store and i took him out of the cage. Hes so small! Mr. Longfellow named him octavis. which is hilarious because he is such a tiny breed. He is trying to eat the computer right now. I got a call from the hospital and i’m going in at 1:20. I have been sick for over a month and I don”t know why /: I want a Pikachu hat!
So I’m looking at starting my photography classes I have a deal to get 4 classes for $79 but I also need to purchase a digital camera which is $130-230. So I’m not sure when I can pursue this. I have always loved photography. Oh yeah, I got the new film for the Diana+ camera and I’m waiting to go to a cemetery for angel pictures I’m going with Mama Longfellow. Mr. Longfellow said last night that he is thinking of transferring from the state prison to a local jail to be closer to home. Which is good but then where are we going to move in town? We both strongly dislike this town and it won’t be cheap. The wedding is still in July. I finally got guts and kinda told one of my sisters finally I sent a message on Facebook while I was laying awake a few nights ago and said ” I’m getting married in July. I’d like you to be there.” And she said ” alright. I will be”. That’s the sister that I didn’t want to tell because she critiques everything I try to get going for my life. My mother told my sisters it won’t last. That hurts. A lot. My own mother won’t even be happy for me. Sometimes I just want to dig down and hurt her. Just one time. Just so she knows a fraction of the way she makes me feel. But I’m not that type of person. People can hurt and hurt and hurt me and I’ll still see good in them. And it’ll be my downfall and already has been in many situations. Today is Saturday and I’m supposed to do a google hangout at 4:30. Other than that I’m not up to anything. I need to do inventory for things to sell and drink something. I’m really bad about hydration. The most I drink a day is about 2 normal size cups of water. It’s supposed to be 6-8. Water is my kryptonIte. It’s so boring. And Mio liquid Water stuff is too strong for me. I don’t like Crystal Light for the same reasons. There is a can of Lemonade on the table next to me but I’m trying to use the force and hope it’ll appear in my hand. I guess I’m not a sorcerer. Sorceress. Whatever. So NCIS:Los Angeles. The short woman. Is she the same short lady off Disneys The Incredibles????? I think I’m onto something! (;
i got my laptop charger yesterday 😀 i’m unstoppable now. I use my #koolkid phone, laptop, and company Ipad, I am very thankful for technology. Online banking is awesome sauce. It’s annoying having to wait in line at a bank that only has one person working. To me it’s on the same level as automated systems. “press 4 for technical support” *presses 4* “Due to high call quantity there will be a hold for the next available representative” here i am thinking oh cool i will just wait…” please enter the social security number associated with this account”…… D: “nooooooooooooo!!!!”. I was calling technical support to pay a bill on my sisters plan.. how would i know all their identity mojo.. so i go into the store.. “hi how may i help you” “i need to pay a bill”. The woman takes my money and gives back the proper amount and i go on with my day. Simplicity. That’s all i want. Tomorrow i have a date with Mr. Longfellow 🙂 he said last night we would be going to see The Lego movie Wednesday. Since i’ve moved in we really haven’t had date nights like we used to. Before, when i was a live-in nanny in another city, he’d take me out to eat or see a movie every weekend/every other weekend when i was able to leave work. I don’t think his mom likes me as much. He’s been sick lately and i was making him grilled cheese in the kitchen and his mom came in and was basically asking to give him tylenol.. it hadn’t even been an hour since i gave him mucinex.So i stood there and i just grinned and she asked what and i said it doesn’t matter and she kept asking so i stated thebox said don’t take with tylenol; and she says “see that’s why i went to nursing school i know he can take one with it”. So i was like whatever( i didn’t say that but i was thinking it). I wasn’t saying she’s wrong.. i’m just very to code about medicine. I rarely take medicine. I avoid it because i grew up seeing a family member pop pills everyday. If i have a really bad headache i will go pass out for 2 hours and if that doesn’t help i will try eating and or drinking water. AND THEN i will resort to medicine. I had a best friend in high school. She was like my sister and she drank.. she would pressure me to and i will admit.. i did 3 times in very small quantities. Then after her brother had surgery on his mouth he was prescribed liquid codine. She would mix it in a thermos with her drinks and tried getting me to drink it. Then she had surgery on her chin because it got infected and she got vicaden. Which also she took with her drinks. i told her it was wrong and she needed to stop or i wouldn’t be around anymore and i’d tell her mom. Her parents let her drink they just didn’t know about the meds. I didn’t do it because i knew it was wrong and i didn’t want to die from it. She weighs alot more than me so her body can handle bigger quantities of medicine. About a year ago she sent me a friend request on Facebook and i let it sit there and after a few months i accepted it. She still has yet to message me. It’s whatever. meh. I have a headache. How many people actually read this blog anyway. I’d love some comments.
It’s friday.. no flea market for kitty. Mr. Longfellow is sick and doesn’t want to go. So he’s just gonna sit on his computer all day. If that’s how this weekend goes I’m not going to be happy. He has today, tomorrow, and Sunday off. He said he wanted to go see the Lego movie when the previews first came out and the week it was premiering and I thought ” who wants to go to the flea Market sick and when it’s raining I’ll ask if he still wants to go see the Lego movie, it involves him just sitting there.” he said no. Most computer geeky guys live on their computer because they have nothing else until they find a girlfriend..and here I am … “Perfect woman” and I get 15 min after he gets off work and that’s while he’s eating then back to the computer, he showers, then sleeps. I don’t know. its just meh. And now that he’s sick it’s even less time. So I’m being a good fiancé and making him food and getting him medicine. He’s actually out of mucinex so later we are going to walmart for more. Today my proper phone case is scheduled to arrive. Yay? I have a headache and I never fully recovered from when I was sick last time. I kept the mucus cough. So I’ll probably go get my lungs checked in two weeks. tom and jerry is on. It’s a quite violent children’s show. But Regular Show on Cartoon Network the 3rd and 4th episodes mordecai anod rigby say “pissing me off”. Gizmo the fluffy kitty is passed out my calves. Sour gummies sound really good right now.
Well it’s Thursday. Nothing really fun happened today. Oh wait a psycho guy decided to message me on Facebook and told me he was going to chop off all my fingers because he said he’d like to get to know me and I replied with a picture of my ring. He continued to call me very horrible things and I stated he should’ve read my profile then he would’ve saw I’m taken. Mr. Longfellow will be giving him a call later tonight 🙂 I thought it was stupid how the guy told me he doesn’t have time to read my profile ( thats the clean version) and I said you don’t have time to read that but you’ll continue to message me being vulgar all because you got mad I’m not single. Anyway… Tomorrow Mr. Longfellow and I are going to the flea market and then to Kay jewlers. My ring snuggles did come in but I had to put two on. So there’s a little one then a big one over it. But yeah mama said that they should be able to resize it for $50. I helped her with some vases for an event that they are going to this Saturday. She really is nice. Everyone here makes me feel like family and included. I should be getting my replacement phone case either tomorrow or Monday 😀 saturday is the family BBQ. Oh yay.. Once again I get to sit around a bunch of meat and be awkward. I’ll just eat mashed potatoes. Mama said she’d make me some homemade Mac and cheese to take. She’s at the store right now. Papa Longfellow just got home and is grumpy.. I use his laptop charger when he is at work and his computer apparently doesn’t keep unless it’s plugged in and it was at 25%. So he’s over there in his special chair cussing at his computer. I feel bad every time I use it so I ordered one today. It was only like $16. Which is pretty good. HP wanted $44 and something then the shipping. Maybe I’m becoming a brand embassador like JG_Fitzgerald.
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